Friday, September 27, 2019

September 26, 2018

It's been about two months since we added a new member to Team R. Miss Hattie (aka #Hattiegirl) settled in quickly and made sure that her presence was felt. She bites, she barks, she paws at our arms and feet. She's chewed, she's eaten, she's cause laughter and worry. And I love her. Almost as much as I love you Baby.

Here's to all of the four-legged members of Team R. Forever will they be in our hearts.

Team R Roll Call

Perfect. In time, in place, in size and shape. 
Everything about you was just what was needed
Prior to you it was quiet
Possibly too much
Everyone who met you loved you
Rightfully so. You were wonderful

Filling a hole that wasn't empty yet
It was amazing to see you blossom
Only when you were a single did we really learn about your personality
Nothing prepared us for your leaving us
And we will never forget you

Hardly a sound when we met
Almost too small to be believed
Too long without a furry, fuzzy companion for us
Then you were spotted and it was instant
I knew that you would be ours with that first gasp
Each day has been an adventure, and I love it

Welcome to the team new girlie
Each member is unique and loved

Always know that we love you
Remember that we will always come back
Every time we go, you are with us

Three years between members was a long time
Even though it was good to be free, we missed it
Always looking, checking for the right time; right friend
Missing those who were no longer in the house

Rescuing you was amazing

Sunday, May 26, 2019

May 26, 2019

Heavy

Each thread may be small
But woven together with their fellows
They all become
Heavy

The enamel and bronze are only parts
The engraving on the front can't even be felt
Pinned to the chest of the officer it can  feel
Heavy

A shot is small
1.5 ounces in volume
Added together over the night, those ounces will be
Heavy

The pieces and springs are tiny
Only bits of metal apart
It's when they are assembled that they become
Heavy


The threads of Kevlar are heavy
On the shoulders of the officer that wear it
A life time of pain is the reward
For staying alive for the career

The badge can be seen by all
It's a symbol of good to most
Of oppression to some
And to evil to a rare few

For some one is enough
For some one is the start
For some one leads to hangovers and dry mouth
For some one leads to courts and jails and death

A pistol on the hip is heavy
The power of death over life
Contained in a plastic and leather holster
At the ready to save or take a life


The Kevlar can't cover the mind
The shield won't keep the demons at bay
The drink will only numb the mind for a short time
And the pistol is the last resort
When it all gets too heavy

1-800-273-8255

Tuesday, April 30, 2019

April 30, 2019

Difficult

The hours that I spend at work, away from you
It's difficult
Away from the one that I love the most
It's difficult

When I have to stay late, even though the money is good
It's difficult
You go into the office early because of so much to do
It's difficult

No warm fuzzy head on the pillow by yours
It's difficult
Limited travel because of our calendars
It's difficult

Seeing you smile when I greet you at the door
Makes it worth it
Holding your hand as we walk down the street
Makes it worth it

A wink, a quick kiss, a pat on my butt
Makes it worth it
Having our goal defined and seeing it getting closer
Makes it worth it

Friday, March 22, 2019

March 21, 2019

For World Poetry Day I write these words. They are simple and off the top of my head. Enjoy them.

World Poetry Day 2019

Last night I laid in our bed alone
You were out of town on business
That I understood, as it is the time of year
But this was a different alone

I missed all of you girls
You, and Fiona, and Pepper
My girls were all gone
Even though you are all always with me

I set the timer for two hours
And the sound to a rhythmic tick-tock
I drifted off quickly and then snapped awake
And saw that it had only been a few minutes

There was too much room
My feet were free and unfettered
My shoulders not touching yours
No gentle breathing, from you or them, in my ears

I closed my eyes and pictured you
Your smile, your eyes
I pictured Pepper and her fuzzy ears
Fiona's white face by my face

That was what I needed and to sleep I fell
In my dreams you were there
With Our Girls
And I didn't miss you as much for the night

Monday, February 11, 2019

There's Hope. There's Help

One decision made. Haste. Hurting. Hopeless

Eight hundred, thousand, million questions after. All left unanswered

Two ways to go. To flee from or to fight the monster

Seven days in a week. One at a time is all you should focus on

Three phone calls. Or texts. Or emails. Any way to reach out. Many ways to reach out

Eight days to plan a funeral? It's never enough
Too many things left unsaid. By you. By us
Five on each side of a casket
Five to fold and present a flag of remembrance

- For Mike

Friday, January 25, 2019

Love Beat Poem January 2019

Love is - many things. Complicated and easy. Filled with highs and lows and if anyone knows how to navigate and delegate and mediate - it's you. And me. We. It's simple to see that my love for you is all encompassing. People have all seen how I adore you. Admire you, would do anything. I live for and would die without you.

Love is - deceptively simple and a ton of work. Getting to know every tic and quirk. Each story and tale whether happy or sad, seeing each other glad or mad. Laughing, crying and talking for hours on end. Not wanting the conversation to end. Love is all of this.

Love is - never a drag, no time ever lags. It's wanting to see each naked no matter what sags. It's not letting the little things bother you, telling each other when you're feeling blue, and knowing that feeling is absolutely true. Consolations after bad dreams, silly jokes rolling eyes, plans and schemes.

Love is love is love. Corny but true. And I'll never, for all of my days, stop loving you.

Friday, July 14, 2017

Anniversary #10

Ten years of us, of love, of We
The best ten years of life for me
We’ve shared laughs and tears and pain
But rest assured that I’d go through it again
With you

I haven’t been the best that I could
And I haven’t always done what I should
You given me joy that I barely deserve
You’re the love of my life and that’s for sure
I love you

The best doggie mommy that our girls could have had
Losing them both made us immeasurably sad
But the memories of you with them makes me smile
And the pain of their loss is gone for a while
They love you

We’ve traveled the country and seen the sights
We’ve held hands in the desert and on Alaskan nights
Seen colors of leaves in the autumn Maine sun
And watched herds of animals on the run
Me and you

Ten more years, and then more and more
Together we’ll see what the world has in store
We are the best match and I give you my heart
Forever, together, and never apart
Team R